March 2008 -  Spring and New Beginnings

 
"Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards."

Soren Kiekegaard

Well, it has been a wild ride since last year.  A new album, a new son, and lots of growing pains in my household.  Things were running wide and amok this past year.  After landing back on my feet, some things feel the same and some  things completely different.  The external landscape appears unchanged, but inside everything has shifted.  With expansion comes new perspective... 

I've looked back, taken in the bruises, mulled over them.  I've come out with still wanting and desiring everything that is yet waiting for me. I still go to bed with the ache to take risks, and I still rise in the morning with expectation to see dreams realized.  Part of  the human soul I suppose.  Hope. I've been with it, and without it.  You can't go on well without it...

If you have been in a winter of discontent, don't stop.  If the next step makes no sense, don't stop.  Keep moving forward.  One morning you will feel the brisk rays of new life stirring inside.  You will emerge like the butterfly from the cocoon.  Beauty is eventually recovered.

I have landed back in the studio to record new material.  You'll hear some new music not too far off!  A new licensing opportunity has come to the table for instrumental versions of my album.  You are hearing some of them when you visit this website.  For licensing inquiries, you can email info@vtowncartelmusic.com or visit the website:  vtowncartelmusic.com, for more information and a free account. I am also planning on doing some touring in the late summer and fall.  Check back for updates and venues.

Here's to a new beginning...

~Karyn

Our Little Russian Settles In.

Well the dust is finally settling in our house... Yes, we returned from Moscow, Russia with a new son in tow, Ethan on March 31st. He's a sparkling, vivacious three year old with never ending supply of energy. I know that somewhere within him lies an energizer battery! He's picking up english now, and keeping us amused as he does: Yesterday this dialogue took place: Ethan: “Mommy, bookah”. “What's that Ethan?” says I, of course completely distracted by other things. But oh no however, he is completely insistent. “Bookah, Mommy. Bookah, bookah, bookah!” So I ask him to show me what he is talking about. He takes my hand and leads me to the bathroom. He then points to his nose, and pulls on the tissue roll. “BOOKAH!” Yes, one of his first words in the english language is booger, but don't ask me where he learned that! You add him plus the presence of our three and half year old daughter, and well, there has been some drama at our house. But I am finally back at the piano, back to writing, and I realized how much I have missed being musically creative! So as summer wraps up, I am looking forward to Fall, and perhaps seeing some of you in person at a gig or two...

I came up with this yesterday. Finished it today. You never really know what a song is about until you've finished it. And when I finished this, I all of sudden understood what this song is about. I realized I had written something about what I could perhaps imagine my son's biological mother went through when she gave him up. So here are the lyrics if you're interested in my musings:

WITHOUT ME
I'm driving down this road, wondering how far it goes, from here
It's taking you from me, and all the things that we could ever be
Will now disappear, but I must be at peace,
As I watch you leave me...

CHORUS:
Could've pulled you close but I let you go
Could've gave it all for you to own
But I chose instead to be alone
Cause I saw, what you could be
Without me.

Night falls on this road, covers me alone, takes me in
And I carry the weight of this choice, that cuts me to the bone
I pray one day it will only be the shadow of a war
That I won't fight anymore...

CHORUS REPEATS
BRIDGE
And when I'm all done looking back
It'll only be in my dreams of reaching for you
Where I'll remember the things between us
That ended too soon...

Chorus out...

Coppyright 2007, Karyn Roy Smith, All rights reserved.

Watch For Special “Unplugged” Concert Dates This Fall!

Watch for me LIVE this Fall at some exclusive unplugged concerts in Ventura county.
I’ve selected a variety of intimate venues I know you’ll enjoy. Some of my favorite places in fact.
So check back later this summer for the specific venues and times.
I look forward to meeting you!

~Karyn

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